by Sarah Pekkanen

Is psychopathy hereditary? This is one of the questions readers will have whilst reading this novel. Ruth is keeping secrets. Secrets about her past. No one knows what she has done, not even her own daughter, Catherine. A catastrophic event happened when Ruth was still in high school, and she’s been on the run ever since. And you know what? She’s done a pretty good job at evading the people of her past, her father, mother, and even the brother she is so close to, who has had to live with her disappearance. Throughout life, she has perpetuated the lie that  when she became pregnant in high school, her overly religious parents abandoned her. She’s also done a pretty good job at raising her daughter, Catherine. As a single mother, Ruth has raised her daughter to be a successful nurse on her way to a new city and a new job. 

But life begins to go awry when Ruth starts showing signs of early-onset Alzheimer’s. Ruth begins to write the truth of her life, or at least what she remembers, in notebooks because she believes her daughter should know the truth of her parentage and the truth behind her mother’s story. 

Devastated by her mother’s diagnosis, Catherine cannot understand her refusal to get formally assessed or make care plans. Suspecting something is amiss—her mother’s responses feel more like lies than simple memory loss—Catherine starts investigating. What she uncovers proves to be confusing and contradictory than expected. Yet, bits of truth slowly emerge, forcing Catherine to realize she may not know the woman she’s called mother at all.

Pekkanen has organized her novel in chapters written from the viewpoints of both Ruth and Catherine, allowing us to see their individual perspectives. However, neither Ruth nor Catherine can be considered a reliable narrator, which adds ambiguity to the truths we encounter as readers and aligns our discovery process with Catherine’s.

Overall, this book offers an engaging and accessible read—an ideal respite between heavier novels. Its fast-paced plot makes it easy to finish in one sitting. 

Thank you to Netgalley and St Martin’s Press for the copy.